a word or two on Hate

I have found within the last few weeks that it is, in fact, possible to govern your entire life and existence around a single emotion.
What good does it do, really, to have that emotion be hate?
Hate can consume, envelope, destroy, control you. Suddenly friends become enemies, queens become sorceresses, and you can't count on anyone, especially yourself.

When I was in elementary school, there was a big problem with bullying in the 6th grade. Girls would gossip, glare, and shoot shards of glass at each others' egos in the form of words. The teachers were all against the students, the students were all against each other, and it was not unlikely to overhear even your veryveryvery best friend listing your faults. The problem of these pre-teen girls escalated until I, alone, was called in to talk to my teachers after school with my parents to figure out how to solve the problem.
I went into that little meeting with an attitude, and left with tears rolling down my cheeks.

I didn't realize it then, but I had let myself be governed by hate. I was obsessed with who-hated-who, why who-hated-who, and what who-hated-who's boyfriend said about her the other day. Because I was completely focused on making their life miserable, I didn't realize that I, in turn, was making my own life miserable. I was filled to the brim with hate and I had never been unhappier.
In high school, the drama is comparatively low - at least with the people I am surrounded by. I have written about my "bubble situation" before, and I have come to see it as a blessing. Obliviousness is bliss. If I don't see a problem, I won't focus on a problem, and instead of being enveloped by only hate I have become enveloped with love and happiness and empathy and everything good.

"Kill them with kindness" is a cliche that actually works (for the most part), and even though I was a little late to see it, hating anybody didn't ever do any good.
As humans, it is important to realize that we all strive for the feeling of acceptance, for the feeling of being loved, and to be able to be comfortable in the skin we've been given.
To live your life ruled by a single emotion is undoubtedly unhealthy - no matter the emotion, but especially if that emotion happens to be hate.

When you hate others, you always end up hating yourself in the process. And you can't hide from yourself. To hate simply isn't worth it.