Wow..
My school is doing a "Tune into the Lord" thing for two weeks. No texting, non-churchy music, tweeting, Facebooking, tv-watching.. nothing. Okay, so I thought it would be hard. But I didn't think it would be THIS hard. So hard, in fact, that I've both texted and tweeted a few times... how awful is that? Am I really so dependent on electronics to make me happy that I cannot go even a few days? I'll try to be better this week. Maybe I'll go for an extra week to make up for the days I have lost..!
But there have been a few times, when I signed into my Google Chrome and was about to log in to Twitter, that I caught myself. Two days ago I created my Mormon profile, and spent an hour looking up conference talks and slide shows about Christ. It's amazing all you can learn from leaders in this day. I learned about judging, mission opportunities, gratitude, and repentance. I am truly awed at it all.
I've always been a fixer. I love when people tell me their wrongdoings, and I love to help them fix up their life the best I can. Whether it be lying, swearing, drugs, or low self confidence I offer to help them in any way. However, there are some things that I simply cannot fix and it breaks my heart to say that. I was just telling a friend today that I wish I go through some of their grievances instead of them, and how I wish it was me in their place. It hurts me to watch someone struggle through their life, and I want more than anything to be able to take it away so that they can be truly happy again.
And then I realized today that Christ wants the same thing! But the difference between Christ and myself both desiring to take away a friend's pain is that Christ can. How amazing is that. Maybe this isn't a new found realization to most people.. but the reality of the atonement has left me speechless today. It all became so real to me. He can fix and take away heart's troubles and doubts, worries, broken hearts, and sins... and he will, the only thing he leaves up to us is to ask. How amazing is that. I am absolutely amazed.